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sad reality March 10, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — sp @ 8:41 pm

today, i was post-call and STILL at the hospital at 3 pm.  though i’d gotten 3 hrs of sleep the night before, this was not where i imagined myself being on the afternoon of my post-call day.  however, not only was i still there at 3 pm, if i’d only had the magic power to write orders, i could’ve been out by 1 pm or so.  but no, there i was, hanging out, waiting for the on-call intern to correctly write orders for some dilaudid to give to a pt so i could get a wound culture from her cellulitis/almost abscess so i could go home.

of course it wasn’t her fault that my intern had already disappeared, and this intern was busy trying to manage the floor patients as well as admit new ones the same time as i was trying to get a wound culture per my attending’s request.  but it was quite frustrating to spend 3 hrs to get everything in place for a 1 min procedure.

as i waited for stuff to get done, i decided to check my email, and discovered emails with the following:

  • my sister had gotten into johns hopkins (yay!) for grad school
  • my brother had questions about med school… to which my response began “well, i’m post-call, got only 3 hrs of sleep, and i’m STILL at the hospital” 
  • my friend had been dumped by a girl who had been seeing a resident at the same time 😮
  • and so the list went…

when i listened to my voicemail, i discovered that josh had received a job offer. 

and it suddenly occurred to me how much of life goes on without me.  and how sad it was that i had to learn all this stuff via email and voicemail, and yet if it weren’t for technology, i would feel even less connected to my friends’ and family’s lives.  if i had young kids, it’d be sooo hard to see how much they were growing up without me.

p.s. and if it weren’t for the ten minutes of NPR i caught on Friday, i’d have had no idea this weekend was daylight saving time.

 

small moments to hold onto March 8, 2007

Filed under: school — sp @ 11:03 pm

it’s week 2 of my medicine rotation and things have been looking pretty bleak.  the transition from psych to internal medicine has been rough.  on psych, i could rely on common sense and recognition of basic patterns of psych pathology.  on IM i’m expected to spout knowledge of all kinds of details from kidney physiology to the management protocol for new onset atrial fibrillation at any moment, and to keep an eye on my patients’ 10+ problems and 20+ medications.  i’ve been feeling like a fish out of water everyday for the past 1.5 weeks.

however, there have been a few rays of light:  

  • a patient telling me “you have good bedside manner”  🙂
  • putting in a femoral line (!) today

 hmm i think i need more moments on this list if i’m going to survive…

 

something to look forward to March 6, 2007

Filed under: calendar,music — sp @ 9:50 pm

on sunday night, instead of doing some extra badly needed reading in preparation for the next day, i was contemplating my lack of a life and current anhedonia.  so i decided to mosey on over to Live 105’s and KFOG’s sites to check out the concert scene and was happily surprised to find out that Ben Gibbard of Death Cab for Cutie would be doing a solo show at the Fillmore in May.  tix had just gone on sale that morning, and i was lucky enough to score a pair as the show now appears to be sold out.  good music, good venue, good price – yay!

i LOVE dcfc and was lucky enough to see them in concert last March with another fave band, franz ferdinand.  not sure if ben is doing a solo project, but based on his work with the postal service and dcfc, i’m sure i’ll love the solo show.

here’s one of my all-time favorite songs:

[odeo http://odeo.com/audio/1598097/view%5D

wish i could upload my own files to the site, as there’re so many dcfc songs to share, e.g. a great cover of “Earth Angel”….  yes, i’m also a big fan of oldies music, and of course, the especially sappy songs.

p.s.  please excuse my limited vocabulary and repetitive word choice as 1) i’m post-call; 2) the goal of medical language is to use as many acronyms as possible; and 3) i read an average of 2 non-medical books a year.